10 days in a row. I have logged into myfitnesspal.com for 10 days in a row...and haven't lost any weight! In that 10 days, I have been under my calories 7 times (not consistant) and I have exercised 2 times (pathetic). I seem to get sick every time I get in a groove. But maybe that is just an excuse not to exercise. I just don't get it! I have spend so many years hating the way I look and feel. So, why can't I stay motivated! I have so much to be healthy for! I have 3 wonderful kids! A great husband! All the tools for success are available to me at every minute of every day! There is no excuse! So why?
I am worried that part of me has accepted how I am and is sabatoging that part of me that wants so much better. I am not an over eater. I am not a lazy person. So why can't I exercise? I got this way because of being sick. Now my health isn't an issue. A cold shouldn't stop me right? So why is it? I used to go to work with pnuemonia for crying out loud! Because I knew I just had to!
I have to exercise! My life depends on it....and yet I can't. I feel so good when I do, but then I get one day of feeling yucky, and it turns into several days. I've tried different kinds of exercise thinking it is just boredom. No dice. I shouldn't need any more motivation then my family.....but maybe I do need that extra something to push me over that edge.
Ok...enough self-reflecting for today. I feel a little better now that I have put my thoughts on paper (so to speak). Gotta love the digital diary :)
I am worried that part of me has accepted how I am and is sabatoging that part of me that wants so much better. I am not an over eater. I am not a lazy person. So why can't I exercise? I got this way because of being sick. Now my health isn't an issue. A cold shouldn't stop me right? So why is it? I used to go to work with pnuemonia for crying out loud! Because I knew I just had to!
I have to exercise! My life depends on it....and yet I can't. I feel so good when I do, but then I get one day of feeling yucky, and it turns into several days. I've tried different kinds of exercise thinking it is just boredom. No dice. I shouldn't need any more motivation then my family.....but maybe I do need that extra something to push me over that edge.
Ok...enough self-reflecting for today. I feel a little better now that I have put my thoughts on paper (so to speak). Gotta love the digital diary :)
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